depressed

it's been two days. the pain never subsides. i still cry at night. i still suffocate upon waking up knowing you're gone.

i miss you.

waiting for you

i never want to hurt you. i never want to see you cry.

but this has to be done. so you appreciate me more. and remember the times, when i used to be your one. your only one.

i never want to beg again for a pinch of your time that i so long to have. i never want to compete again for anything that's going on in your life.

i get tired too. waiting for you. waiting on you. i'm spent. emptied. drained.

i cannot take any of these anymore. your indifference. your silence. your disregard. for even at the last moment, when all that i'm hanging on to was a thin thread of hope, you chose to linger on your silence. at the time when i was desperately begging for you to change my mind, i heard nothing but silence.

please believe, i never want to hurt you. i never want to see you cry.

but i get tired too.

waiting for you.

sadness

tiredness.

infidelity.

sadness.

separation.

being alone.

sadness.

fear.

new life.

and sadness.

goodbye, my love

i can't believe the world is again moving on. i can't believe an era of the best years of my life is nearing its end, that a new one is fast approaching. my old world is getting tired. the sun isn't where it used to rise. the moon isn't as bright. my world is moving on.

and i am not ready for it.

i am afraid of it.

but there is nothing that can be done. except perhaps to embrace it. and in so doing, forget the past. along with everything and everyone that's in it. including the one.

my only one.

paalam na.

i will miss all the great fun we had together. i will miss the endless nights of laughter and romance. i will miss the life we built together.

i will miss you.

i wish you the best. i wish you luck. i wish you love.

goodbye,

my love.